It will not sustain and everything that was has gone
So get away for yourself and try to move on.
Give up your falsely guiding decisions; surrender your soul.
Let go of the devil’s grip, so empty and cold.
She will not help for she is only a temptress
Fabricated to confuse you, she provides nothing but emptiness.
Your eyes, the window to your soul will be open and afraid
But do not fear for Christ will break in and suffer your pain.
The hurt, the heartbreak, the choices and mistakes.
All will be null and void in due course by whom God deployed
Forgiven, will be our wretched fallacies
Cleaned, will be our blood-soaked hands.
Even though we stain them again and again.
I am dissatisfied with this life, and the fault is all my own.
I’ve locked out God and the effects have clearly shown.
Misuse of ability, knowledge, emotion, and time
The offenses are clear and I perpetrate the crimes.
My rights are upheld only by the holy court of three.
Father, Son, and Spirit; Holy Trinity.
Murder and bribery, every day I commit
Though, not in the worldly sense, you see.
I murder opportunities and strangle sound logic
For the chance to toss another monster in the closet.
I bribe myself out of sound decisions.
I fail every day, cutting another metaphorical incision.
The saddest part of all is that I am too numb.
Too numb to realize who I hurt by being selfish
Too numb to let my heart be dealt with.
Like a patient trying to remove an I.V
I squirm and try to defeat what’s helping me.
It’s time to relight the barely burnt wick,
It’s time to stop pretending
Like a person who fakes sick.
So Lord, Please break and enter
Because I need you at the center.
I can’t muster the courage to open the gate
So what do I do now; I know it’s not wait.
You are the only thing keeping me from dying
Though I am never too far from flat lining.
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