Anxiety

Anxiety is the culprit of stress in my life. It is really the only thing that causes me stress. Instead of stressing about a dangerous situation or a looming deadline, i let little unimportant things give me anxiety... though there are only a few things that still can let anxiety have its grip on me. Not today, though. I am not allowing it to affect me anymore. The solution is an unconditional surrender. I wave the white flag of submission to my God and he swoops me and carries me and brings me along. I am still a perpetrator of building my own timeline and i am still a timeline terrorist. I cannot sit in wait and i cannot be patient. I am used to getting what i want, but that changes today, at least for one situation. I surrender my anxiety over this situation and i end my control of the helm right now. I will go back to enjoying the ride like i was just before, and i realize if things in my life are supposed to happen, they will... but not because of my own will. Goodbye anxiety, you have no hold on me today.

The anxiety is building
it's been a long time
since i've felt the desire,
i tell myself i'm fine.

Shaken and stirred
Cracked, but still whole
Like a hardboiled egg
that dropped and then rolled.

i sit in the insanity
tell myself i should worry
He tells me i should stop
He calms me in my fury.

i hear Him in the music
i feel Him in the sound
He calms my rampant heart
i'm subdued by his crown.

The anxiety subsides
I feel better inside
He's the purpose in life
and without Him i've died.