A While

Its been a while since we last talked and some time has surely passed. It's been a while since we last walked together in the sun and light. It's been some time since we've communicated, but i don't worry, you know me and our relation has not dissipated. I've been hiding in caves, holes, and under water, breathing through a tube... i can't do it any longer. I came up and you spotted me and saved me. You carried me to shore, made me rest and gave me food. You deal with my flaws when nobody else should. The day that i die, is the day you say i'm alive and until then, together we ride. Switching directions like the wind, i am never consistent. My habits, thoughts, and humanity make me less than desirable as an apprentice or employee, but you hire me anyway. You give me something to believe in and someone to follow and a reason. A reason to wake up with a smile on my face even when i have finals and tests all in my face. This world goes on even after i'm gone and you make that clear when i try and pretend i am important. Humility and purity, selfless love, and the lot, at these you are good, but always, i am not. Still we roll on until the next dawn. How many more sunrises though, i don't know. It's not for me to say so i suppose i'll live in your shadow one more day. One more day as the lost lamb, though at the end of it all i'm the prodigal son. Lost and found, lost and found. Again and again, like a merry-go-round. We dance in circles and i try to escape, my legs are always tired and my mind gets wary. I can't keep up with your pace and feel life's a race. You sit me down and tell me that, that is not my place. I am a slow runner so why do i try and win. It's time to switch gears and help those within. Those who can't finish the race because they can't run. It's my turn to carry them and let them feel the wind on their face. I've enjoyed the luxuries the world has to offer and they are nothing compared to the love of you, my father. So for at least a day i am found again. Until i'm lost next, let's talk and instill. Even though i can't focus, i promise i will try to listen and sit still.

No sleep, can't speak, knees weak, tryin'a see.
Good Day, Good Lord, Early Morning, Long Stored.
Been waiting, anticipating. now it comes, one large sum.
Days are numbered, i waste on slumber.
Can't smell, can't hear. Quickly, instill fear.
Keep on living, lovely earth. One more day, what's life worth?
The end is coming, i'm surely doomed.
All terminal sinners, eternally subdued.
So, take us from here and make our slates clear.

5-25-10